Does it ever work?
I don't know.
I'm not sure I could even tell you what I resolved to change last year.
What I do know, is that I am significantly happier and I have taken more control of my life and I am very, very grateful for that.
We have accomplished a lot, and that's all you can ask. Life is short and you should try and pack in as much as you possibly can with the time you have. Not to sound morbid or anything, but you never know when your time might come to an end. There have been plenty examples of that this year.
So, what's the point of resolutions?
I think you have to see them as more of a self-assessment.
There's not much real point in saying you are going to do this, or you are going to do that - chances are it's not going to happen, and you are going to feel a lot less happy for it.
It's much better to assess what's already going on and try to take note - you might not follow up on any of it, but just a simple reflection is sometimes all you need to kick-start something awesome.
So here's my, well, not resolutions, but self-reflections. I'm not promising to change, I'm not going to become super-human overnight. But here's a note to myself. A recognition of things I might not be all too happy with and an acknowledgement that there might be a better way to do things.
1. Try to see the positives instead of the negatives.
I am your classic glass-half-empty kind of gal. It's a terrible affliction and more often than not leads to a lot more stress and strain than anything else in my life. Nobody is harsher on me than I am.
I'm realising more and more with age that actually, in the grand scheme of things, what I do doesn't really matter. I'm getting a lot more into the train of thought that I should do what makes me happy and I have stopped worrying about any so called 'consequences', which are, more often than not, completely dramatic and made up.
Trying to look at the light instead of the dark is easier said than done, especially if I'm feeling tired or stressed and overwhelmed, but one thing I have learned (especially through living with these crazy children) is that there's always something to laugh at and that we are in fact very lucky indeed.
2. Eat better
I've tried a lot of new things this year, and it's been a real eye-opener for this fussy vegetarian. I have a really funny palate and am completely adverse to some textures, so trying new things (and enjoying them) is always amazing to me.
Later nights and a smaller kitchen have led to me taking the easy route - pizza, snacks instead of meals, filling up on crisps. I've never really eaten like that before. I love to eat fresh and healthy, so I suppose I should make more of an effort to get back on track with this. I suppose time has just become such a huge factor in this. Must try harder!
3. Stop worrying (so much) about the kids.
Okay, so this is never really going to happen, but what I can do is give them the benefit of the doubt more. I can stop panicking that they are going to fall off walls, I can stop worrying so much about the impact moving house and school will have on them, and I can stop stressing about how they are going to cope with a new baby in the house.
I have two, very balanced, very happy wee guys who take most things in their stride, and as long as we continue giving them a solid base to work from, everything will be just grand!
4. Stay open to new things (but know when enough is enough)
I'm quite good at this. I love changing things up and trying new stuff. I think I have to try and let go of my inner fear when it comes to some things though. It's really tough to say yes to stuff when you are already pushed for time, etc. but one thing I have learned is that I should also learn when enough is enough. No point in ruining a great experience by getting too tired and stressed.
5. Take time to re-investigate what you love
I love gaming. So I'm going to do more of that. I need to read more books. I NEED to use my sewing machine.
But I am ALWAYS making excuses.
No time, no energy, not enough fabric, too messy, too silly, too time-consuming, no good books.
Enough with the excuses! I will be knitting, crocheting, reading, sewing, crafting and so much more this year, because that is what I love to do. And I miss it.
I would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone for reading this year and sharing this wee blogging journey with me. It's made me laugh, been so good for reflecting and helped me close a few doors too. It's also opened a lot of doors and I've made some lovely new friends to boot.
I'm really enjoying getting words down on page and sharing with you all. It's something that's just for me, and I kinda need that.
I'm really looking forward to the new adventures 2015 will bring.
Lang May Yer Lum Reek!